Am I Even a Witch Anymore?

When I began practicing witchcraft eight years ago, I was in a really dark place. I’d ceded nearly all of my power and agency to others, and I was willing to do anything I could to reclaim it. For reasons I still can’t explain, I cast a spell, and the experience was one of the most powerful and deeply transformative I’ve ever had. It taught me that I could both draw and defend boundaries, that I should listen to my deep inner knowing above all, and that there were mysterious forces at play within me and without me.

From that day on, I dedicated myself to learning everything I could about witchcraft. I assembled some makeshift magical tools, crafted an altar space, and spent time there every day. I discovered the realm of my shadow and began a dedicated practice of illuminating what I’d repressed or forgotten. The goddess Morrigan was my constant companion on these trips, providing strength and encouragement whenever I needed it.

One of my earliest altar spaces (circa 2016)

Over the next few years, I grew tremendously. I healed my mother wound and my marriage, and built a thriving business around tarot and witchcraft. I released the Spell Bound E-course, and then the Lunar Alchemy E-course, and the Sublime Heart E-course. I created the Mind Witch Coven and offered ritual guides, tarot readings, and spell tutorials to its members every month, and life was pretty good. In the midst of this growth and upward swing, however, something heartbreaking and unexpected happened:

I lost my connection with witchcraft.

I still set intentions, talked with my guides, and cast spells, but I just didn’t feel deeply moved like I had in the past. My relationship with the Morrigan waned, and the passionate fire I’d first felt for my practice died down to a smoldering ember.

I just figured that I was going through a spiritual slump–as any seeker knows, this happens from time to time. I had faith that I’d make my way through it, so I continued to show up for myself and my practice every day. Over time, however, it became clearer and clearer that the ways I was showing up were changing, and that my heart was opening itself to something new.

Instead of planning elaborate lunar rituals, I caught the full moon’s eye and whispered, “thank you.” I spent more time aimlessly lying in fields than I did picking and drying herbs for incense. I wrote poetry instead of incantations. I stopped reading books on ritual and spellcraft and started reading books on consciousness expansion, nondualism, and Buddhist philosophy. I still read tarot for myself every day (some things never change), but my practice began looking more and more like relaxation, creativity, and mindfulness, and less and less like, well, witchcraft.

I didn’t really know what to do about this. I mean, I’m the creatrix of the Mind Witch Coven and the Mind Witch Academy. I’ve made over 100 videos on witchcraft and magick. I’ve dedicated the past six years of my life to sharing this tradition with others.

If I’m not a witch, then what am I?

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About a month ago, I started a series of deity paintings for the coven; I’d just gotten some new art supplies and I was looking for any reason I could find to use them. I thought these figure renderings would be a vacation of sorts, a gentle sojourn I could take while I figured out my next step. It quickly became clear to me that something much bigger was at play, however. My deep inner knowing was leading me towards an exciting discovery, and my pencil and brush would be the vehicles of that discovery.

When I began to sketch or paint, a profound sense of peace washed over me. Everything that was unclear or confusing dissipated, and my mind became laser-focused on the task at hand. I didn’t need to wrack my brain for concepts and ideas; they flowed through me like water, and I rendered them with patience and ease. As soon as one painting was finished, a fully-formed concept for the next one popped into my mind. When I finished my paintings, I neither felt drained nor exhausted; instead, I felt renewed and ready for more. The process was effortless, and I was deeply inspired by what I was doing. I didn’t know where I was headed, but I did know that I was moving in the right direction.

Shortly after I finished my deity series, an image of the embodied feminine divine popped into my mind’s eye. She had long, curly red hair, and she was standing nude before a vast expanse while holding an apple. I took out my paints and brushes and began playing, and within a few hours, she was finished.

When I gazed down at her, she silently spoke the name Empress. It was at that moment that my path finally became clear: I was making a tarot deck.

The Empress from the Genius Garden Tarot

I’d wanted to make a tarot deck from the very beginning, but the rising popularity of my witchcraft offerings forced me to put that project on the back burner. As fate would have it, questioning my identity as a witch was exactly what I needed to do to reconnect with my passion for tarot, art, and intuitive spirituality. Like Santiago in Paul Coelho’s The Alchemist, I had to travel across the desert to discover that my treasure was at the exact spot where my journey began.

Over the past six years, I’ve created three full-length courses, twenty-odd lessons, and 150 videos dedicated to the practice and study of witchcraft. I’ve taught magick and ritual to over nearly 1000 people through the Mind Witch Academy alone, and I’m intensely proud of every offering I’ve shared there. Every e-course, lesson, and magical collection I’ve ever created is still available through the Mind Witch Academy, and they remain as powerful and relevant as they were on the day I created them. If you’re just diving into the beautiful, powerful, wonderful world of witchcraft, I highly recommend them as a valuable resource to guide and inspire you on your journey.

For the next year at least, I’ll be dedicating much of my time and energy to making the Genius Garden Tarot a reality. I’ll also be crafting an immersive “Genius Journey” that I’ll offer through the Academy, and I’ll continue to create monthly offerings for my beautiful patrons. I’ll be sharing these offerings in the same spirit as before, but they’ll better reflect my current spiritual practices: earth-walking, poetry writing, compassion, forgiveness, trust, mindfulness, heart-opening, authentic living, creativity, beauty, and channeling Genius, of course!

I want you to know that despite this new development in my journey, who I am hasn’t changed. I may no longer call myself a witch, but my magic runs deep and my connection with cosmic consciousness is as stronger than ever. And my mission to serve you literally remains the same: “I want you to see things as you’ve never seen them before. I want to encourage you to make the bold moves you’ve been too scared or resistant to make. I want to help you learn how to master your mind so you can live deliberately. I want to show you that love and creativity is the way to your wildest dreams!”

It’s my sincere wish that you continue to take this journey with me, and if you do, here are the many ways you can come along for the ride:

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So Much Love,

Jessi

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